I was told I could be
Anything (everything?)
I believed that needing
Was less than being
Head held high,
Solitude was my strength
But not my comfort
Things change though, don't they?
I am no longer ashamed to admit,
Without you I am (not w)hole
In this eternal Journey
Alone only gets you so far
And that is not enough for me
So like it or not
You are stuck with me
Together we can Be
Everything
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Let There Be Light
The other day when I was reading my scriptures I read the Matthew 6:22 which says:
The light of the body is the eye:
if therefore thine eye be single,
thy whole body shall be full of light.
So I've been thinking about light, and being single to something, and what my eyes have to do with all of it.
The other morning I had one of those mornings where everything just seemed... I don't know if perfect is the right word, but everything just felt so simple. The boys were happy, we played, the house was neat, I knew what I was making for dinner and knew I had everything for it, we didn't have anywhere we had to go... Anyways, it was just a really nice morning. And as I put the boys down for their naps I just wished I could maintain the peace I felt at that moment forever.
As I thought about the things that contributed to that morning going well, at least the aspects of it that I could control, I decided the top 2 were:
1. I had woken up early and studied my scriptures, and then I had exercised
2. I had banned myself from the computer for the morning
I seriously am amazed at the difference I feel in my days when I start them by studying the scriptures. I truly feel a tangible power that allows me to feel calmer and more clear-thinking. I still make mistakes (oh so many!) and I still have problems, but I feel so much more even.
And I'm also amazed at the computers ability to distract me almost CONSTANTLY. It was incredible how often that morning I thought "Oh, I'll just run in and email so and so really quick" or "I'll just run in and look that up" and then I had to stop myself and remember I wasn't using the computer that morning.
Anyways, back to the scripture, I thought about what my purpose is right now, and how I can be single to that. How if I can keep my eyes, both my inner and physical eyes, focused on the things that are REALLY important to me, that I can be "full of light". I can keep that feeling of balance and clear-headed-ness about me.
I feel like I'm bouncing all over, but I guess I'm just still thinking through this and trying to figure it out. Back to the internet, G has been reading the book What Technology Wants, and he often reads me sections of it, and last night I started reading it too. From what I've gotten so far, I can't recommend this book enough if you want to think about the impact technology has on your life. But it has started me really thinking about the technology I use in my day to day life, and trying to be a little more thoughtful in the way I use it, and make sure it is not one of the things that is distracting me from "being single" in my purpose. I have just read the first chapter, but one line is loved was (and I feel like I am doing a disservice sharing it out of context, but forgive me, and read the book!) "I became fascinated by the challenge of picking the few tools that might elevate my spirit".
So that's my goal today, to think about the technology I'm using, and decide if how I'm using it is elevating my spirit, and keeping my eye single, or if it's just distracting me.
The light of the body is the eye:
if therefore thine eye be single,
thy whole body shall be full of light.
So I've been thinking about light, and being single to something, and what my eyes have to do with all of it.
The other morning I had one of those mornings where everything just seemed... I don't know if perfect is the right word, but everything just felt so simple. The boys were happy, we played, the house was neat, I knew what I was making for dinner and knew I had everything for it, we didn't have anywhere we had to go... Anyways, it was just a really nice morning. And as I put the boys down for their naps I just wished I could maintain the peace I felt at that moment forever.
As I thought about the things that contributed to that morning going well, at least the aspects of it that I could control, I decided the top 2 were:
1. I had woken up early and studied my scriptures, and then I had exercised
2. I had banned myself from the computer for the morning
I seriously am amazed at the difference I feel in my days when I start them by studying the scriptures. I truly feel a tangible power that allows me to feel calmer and more clear-thinking. I still make mistakes (oh so many!) and I still have problems, but I feel so much more even.
And I'm also amazed at the computers ability to distract me almost CONSTANTLY. It was incredible how often that morning I thought "Oh, I'll just run in and email so and so really quick" or "I'll just run in and look that up" and then I had to stop myself and remember I wasn't using the computer that morning.
Anyways, back to the scripture, I thought about what my purpose is right now, and how I can be single to that. How if I can keep my eyes, both my inner and physical eyes, focused on the things that are REALLY important to me, that I can be "full of light". I can keep that feeling of balance and clear-headed-ness about me.
I feel like I'm bouncing all over, but I guess I'm just still thinking through this and trying to figure it out. Back to the internet, G has been reading the book What Technology Wants, and he often reads me sections of it, and last night I started reading it too. From what I've gotten so far, I can't recommend this book enough if you want to think about the impact technology has on your life. But it has started me really thinking about the technology I use in my day to day life, and trying to be a little more thoughtful in the way I use it, and make sure it is not one of the things that is distracting me from "being single" in my purpose. I have just read the first chapter, but one line is loved was (and I feel like I am doing a disservice sharing it out of context, but forgive me, and read the book!) "I became fascinated by the challenge of picking the few tools that might elevate my spirit".
So that's my goal today, to think about the technology I'm using, and decide if how I'm using it is elevating my spirit, and keeping my eye single, or if it's just distracting me.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Menus and Change
Menus for this week:
Monday: Enchiladas, Crockpot Refried Beans
Tuesday: 2 Cheese Veggie Pasta
Wednesday: Tomato Avocado Sandwiches & Oven Fries
Thursday: Vegetarian Black Bean Chili via Martha Stewart
Friday: - Falafel & Hummus
Saturday: - Broccoli Quiche
Sunday - Szuchan Beef
And the second item of business on our agenda today is - Change.
Being the New Year and all I've been hearing/thinking quite a bit about change. I've been thinking about how there are very few decisions in our life that we just make 1 time. For example, if I decide I want to start exercising on a regular basis, I have to make that "resolution" if you will, but then I have to make that choice again, and again, each morning when my alarm goes off. Do I REALLY want to roll out of bed this early? Wouldn't 45 minutes of sleep be nicer?
While G was off for Christmas Break we spent a lot of time re-organizing and cleaning the house. When he went back to work it really looked quite spectacular. And of course I want to keep it that clean and nice all the time, so I am trying to train myself to keep making that choice every day. It's just SO many little choices. Putting the coats away vs. hanging them over the couch. Cleaning up lunch right away instead of after nap time (which usually turns into clearing off the table so I can set the table for dinner...)
Anyways, I've just been trying to figure out ways to make those smaller, continual choices that follow a big choice easier. Just being aware of them has helped. I am doing a little better at keeping the house clean (granted, it's been less than 2 weeks, so this is not a victory speech, but progress is being made). But I think there's something more to it that will help. I'm going to keep thinking about it... I'll report back when I have my Eureka moment.
Monday: Enchiladas, Crockpot Refried Beans
Tuesday: 2 Cheese Veggie Pasta
Wednesday: Tomato Avocado Sandwiches & Oven Fries
Thursday: Vegetarian Black Bean Chili via Martha Stewart
Friday: - Falafel & Hummus
Saturday: - Broccoli Quiche
Sunday - Szuchan Beef
And the second item of business on our agenda today is - Change.
Being the New Year and all I've been hearing/thinking quite a bit about change. I've been thinking about how there are very few decisions in our life that we just make 1 time. For example, if I decide I want to start exercising on a regular basis, I have to make that "resolution" if you will, but then I have to make that choice again, and again, each morning when my alarm goes off. Do I REALLY want to roll out of bed this early? Wouldn't 45 minutes of sleep be nicer?
While G was off for Christmas Break we spent a lot of time re-organizing and cleaning the house. When he went back to work it really looked quite spectacular. And of course I want to keep it that clean and nice all the time, so I am trying to train myself to keep making that choice every day. It's just SO many little choices. Putting the coats away vs. hanging them over the couch. Cleaning up lunch right away instead of after nap time (which usually turns into clearing off the table so I can set the table for dinner...)
Anyways, I've just been trying to figure out ways to make those smaller, continual choices that follow a big choice easier. Just being aware of them has helped. I am doing a little better at keeping the house clean (granted, it's been less than 2 weeks, so this is not a victory speech, but progress is being made). But I think there's something more to it that will help. I'm going to keep thinking about it... I'll report back when I have my Eureka moment.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Menus for this week
Here are my menus for the week:
Monday - Cabbage, Onions, Apples and Noodles
Tuesday - Corn tortillas with beans, tomatoes, lettuce, etc
Wednesday - Black and white checkered chili
Thursday - Cincinnati Chili
Friday - Baked potatoes
Saturday - ? I can't remember, hopefully I'll come back and add this in
Sunday - Something in the crockpot, with chicken
Nothing crazy exciting, but hopefully it will keep my family fed for a week.
Monday - Cabbage, Onions, Apples and Noodles
Tuesday - Corn tortillas with beans, tomatoes, lettuce, etc
Wednesday - Black and white checkered chili
Thursday - Cincinnati Chili
Friday - Baked potatoes
Saturday - ? I can't remember, hopefully I'll come back and add this in
Sunday - Something in the crockpot, with chicken
Nothing crazy exciting, but hopefully it will keep my family fed for a week.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Should Old Aquaintence Be Forgot....
Another New Year! Amazing.
And although it seems to be going out of style to set goals on New Years, I guess I am old fashioned, and will continue the tradition, as ill-fated as it may be.
I think the hardest part of making goals on New Years for me is narrowing down my options. I can think of about 1,542 areas in which improvement is sorely needed, but I think if I set even just 500 new years goals I would probably get overwhelmed, so I decided to try and narrow the it down to 2 areas I would like to focus on improvement.
So I've decided on Consistency and Forgiveness.
I tend to go in fits and spurts with so many things, and I was to just be more steady, more reliable.
Also forgiveness. I have a horrible habit of holding onto things, the tiniest of things, and making mountains out of molehills, especially with Grant, which is so lame. I guess I take some sort of odd pleasure in the feeling of being "right", like "Well, he did ____________, and he shouldn't of done that, so I'll show him by not talking to him for an hour". Which typed out sounds so childish and lame, and it is. And I'm determined to change and be better. Most of the "insults" are not even intentional on his part I'm sure.
So there you have it. I'm off to have a cup of hot chocolate. Because I need to be more consistent in my hot chocolate drinking I think.
And although it seems to be going out of style to set goals on New Years, I guess I am old fashioned, and will continue the tradition, as ill-fated as it may be.
I think the hardest part of making goals on New Years for me is narrowing down my options. I can think of about 1,542 areas in which improvement is sorely needed, but I think if I set even just 500 new years goals I would probably get overwhelmed, so I decided to try and narrow the it down to 2 areas I would like to focus on improvement.
So I've decided on Consistency and Forgiveness.
I tend to go in fits and spurts with so many things, and I was to just be more steady, more reliable.
Also forgiveness. I have a horrible habit of holding onto things, the tiniest of things, and making mountains out of molehills, especially with Grant, which is so lame. I guess I take some sort of odd pleasure in the feeling of being "right", like "Well, he did ____________, and he shouldn't of done that, so I'll show him by not talking to him for an hour". Which typed out sounds so childish and lame, and it is. And I'm determined to change and be better. Most of the "insults" are not even intentional on his part I'm sure.
So there you have it. I'm off to have a cup of hot chocolate. Because I need to be more consistent in my hot chocolate drinking I think.
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